I am writing this while arguing with my partner...
I've been faithful and responsible with all my best. All I do is for my family. I stay for my son.
It is not easy when your partner accuse you of something that you never did. It is not ok when HE says "meron na kasing bago", and when you know in your mind, heart and soul, none of these statements were true.
I want to leave not because I have someone in my life now, I want to leave because I know our relationship is no longer existing. We are only here because of baby jm. I know in myself that there are things to be fixed for our relationship keep going, and I know that you cannot understand it, that's why I am still here.
It hurts whenever I say " Ayaw ko na " even if the truth is I just need space to complete myself and yours. I do not want to live with regrets. I do not want to live with this kind of life. He knows that this is not my dream life, but it just happened and I need to work hard, study hard so that I will be able to achieve my goals and dreams for my son and for my family.
Being immature is what I always wanted to changed from him. I know we did not enjoy our lives as a teenager but this our life now. We do not have parents to earn money for us, maybe for our son, but not for us.
It also hurts when he says "wala ka kasing social life". Maybe it is true. I chose to be like this for my family. Because I wanted to, I wanted to give my best for jm. But it looks like giving my best made you blind.
"ikaw na may kaibigan, pero sana gawin mong priority kung anong meron ka ngayon"
Don't wait for the time na maging katulad pa tayo ng mga magulang natin.
I love you so much babe. But loving you like this, kills me. :(
